Showing posts with label poetry. Show all posts
Showing posts with label poetry. Show all posts

Sunday, 16 September 2012

Self-denier: More Adventures in Anti-Survivalism

Posted 10 August 2011 - 04:01 AM


I can't pretend it gets easier, are those pills making you bitter?

Last time I saw you, you were a balloon, tied up in a string.

You don't know the ghosts of your past, whose lives you've left for dead. You're hiding under the table again, talking to a chimpanzee, a snake; spitting out the cake and watching old film on a new movie screen - but you're still so lost for thought, for inspiration, for a clue.

Post-modernist or scientist, you're running from the pain; but you'll read it in a book, where the sarcasm's not snide, it's all subtle and dry, and for once the words don't judge you, the illustrations don't whisper secrets; and even the stories you read - of glorious everydays, of troubled existence- are all muted. 

Crawlers


Posted 15 July 2011 - 11:32 PM


As I went out
No, I didn't go in there again

I don't remember why
Though it may have been a matter of principle

And as I moved out
And opened my arms to the sunlight
The world wore fresh colours

People were smiling
Children were laughing
Making noises with their skaters
Going in circles around us

When everything turned out alright
Though we didn't get it right this time

We were all on the booze
We had nothing to lose
Just our guiltless lives

On pebble-studded sidewalks 
And river-crossed streets of our city
Where our destinies were chosen
When the night turned into day

It really turned out alright this time
Yeah, it turned out OK 

Rumbles.


Posted 06 July 2011 - 02:18 PM


In the darkness
In my sadness
Where the buffaloes roam
Where the wheels turn round

Tell me, how does it feel to be the eye of the storm?
How does it feel to be the only one? 

Parade

Added on February 26, 2011



I had a fake birthday.

There were real people; With real families, real leisure activities, and real back pains.

It was two days late. It wasn't my birthday.

Candystore Tramp

Added on February 26, 2011



I didn't get a Valentine's this year
am I not as sweet as a rose?

Am I cheap - not as precious as a gemstone,
as lovely as rhyme, as soft as a teddybear?

What possible good have I done,
to not be futile in the eyes of lovers, of serpents?

To scrub clean tiles. To remember a train.
To not be deceived that the rain should awaken nature.

Saturday, 15 September 2012

There's no use in poetry, degradation and the poetry of degradation

23/08/07 19:19


maybe, maybe I'm just one man and you're plenty
when you say I'm out of touch
and all you who say I'm defeatist...

Well, there you go

And I haven't quite had much to begin with.
No, not worth the point of arguing
What is there? To fight for?
Oh, mock me at will
Because I wasn't made for warfare.

Dress me up in all your favourite clothes
and smear your lipstick on
"Oh, you miserable tart"
-But that's what I said...

Oh never mind...

And it's funny when you're told when to laugh,
and who to laugh at.
I'm too old to be told I'm so young
And mistaking
And I'd have so much use in some wealth, some mock-marrige
And a home... Which had never been mine.
So shut up, shut up...

Won't you just?...

Resignation



03:09 09/01/2007

When you'll look back at your life - was it all worth it? The art of loving and hating at the same time 
Seeing all you can't see Believing all that you have never been And always sure so misunderstood Why knowing is not understanding we are mother nature's orphans This blood dripping from our hands

Another now, again



A tidal wave, 
I’m lost in you.
I repeat myself,
I’m lost in you.

At another place and time,
When there was ‘I and you’,
And we were one with the night skies of dark,
One with the stars that shimmer so brightly,
I have a distant memory of how we used to dream.
Now I’m only dying in my sleep.

I can’t speak, 
And what I see I don’t contain.
So I should shut myself away again today, 
To look at the world through my clear glass windows,
My eyes,
My immovable vision of apathy.

Denied me of reality,
I’m losing all ability.

You flew, grown wings and left me the broken parts.
I guess one of us had to end in pieces-
And you were too beautiful to be destroyed.

December 15th, 2002