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Sunday, 16 September 2012

Prompt 1: Moon

Aug. 2nd, 2011 at 9:06 PM






'Under blue moon I saw you, so soon you'll take me...'

Ian scribbles his words on the notepad, concentrating. In moments like this, he can almost feel some kind of presence next him, but he knows it's not real, so he ignores it.

Right now he's all alone, which is how he prefers it. This part - the writing - is all his, and with this one he felt compelled to write the lyrics before the music, so he can properly devote himself to it and not just rely on his quick wit - which was still in good condition, thank you very much.

He can feel now, more than just Pete's drums clanking in his ears, Will's soaring or twiddling guitar parts, and Les' rhythmic bass. Rest assured, they would all have a time and a place - as he contemplates the structure of the verses, the length of each syllable, the right feel for this song - he has more or less of an idea of what this baby would sound like, and he hopes his friends won't let him down on that one. Each time he picks up a phrase, a melodic idea, a wordplay - he can feel his toes curl up. He feels his back slumped heavily over the brick wall outside where he's standing, the weight abstractly shifting from his lower back to his feet and back up - still leaning, but his legs are dangling forward in an angle. He curls his lips along the metallic end of his pencil, seemingly absent-mindedly - but he sucks gently and bites it in order to grasp onto *something* now, to know his words are coming from within, and not by any outside source. The image in his head is so striking, but clear, like gazing at your reflection in the water. 

The paper sheet is darkening before his eyes, and he needs to strain them to look at the words. He knows he's been hanging around for hours, and the night's beginning to fall. There's no use of trying to read what he'd written, everything he sees is just a smudge of greys now, and he's trying to shake off that feeling, that there are just things in life that you have no control of, and you can't will them away.

All he has left now are those images in his head, and some of his words, though he forgets them, so now his visual memory takes over, captivating him on a different level - before the night falls down and takes his soul away - No, wait, why would the night consume him? Where did that thought come from?

He shuffles his feet and moves down, until he sits with his back at the wall. Just a little dark figure crumpled over the wall at night, and if someone gives him hassle he would say he's looking for his muse, people often just think he's weird and leave him alone.

He can't be bothered to keep his eyes open - he often doesn't - and in-between dreaming about home-made cooking and football, he dreams about the moon over the Mersey river, and how magical it seemed to him when he was a kid; How gorgeous and mysterious it was to him. He could hear it call for him, whatever it means. He's sure it would call him again one day.

He wakes feeling a lot calmer, though in his mind, he estimates he hasn't been dosing off for long - his biological clock is never wrong on these things. As he puts his notepad under his arm and gets ready to leave, he can feel someone touching his shoulder, but he turns around and sees no one. He shrugs it off, huddling because he's gotten colder.

Rumbles.


Posted 06 July 2011 - 02:18 PM


In the darkness
In my sadness
Where the buffaloes roam
Where the wheels turn round

Tell me, how does it feel to be the eye of the storm?
How does it feel to be the only one? 

Be My Baby?...

[Feb. 14th, 2011|10:57 pm]
"Happy Valentine's Day," Nicky read out his card, which was nothing but a piece of cut-out cardboard, lovingly decorated by its sender. He even drew a glittery heart, the cheeky imp! "Love, James." written in his handwriting. That round, girlish handwriting Nicky would normally tease him about.

"Thank you." Nicky said, thinking how he can't possibly accept this valentine, and actually feeling worse about this day than he already had, a dark cloud hanging over his head.

"I thought, you know, that you might appreciate the gesture." James shrugs, grinning self-consciously. As if playing it off as a gesture between friends who deeply care about each other - and love each other, yes, but not in a more than friendly way -  would make Nicky's rejection - or worse, lack or acknowledgement - easier to deal with.

"Look, I know this day isn't easy for you, for any of us, but I thought it might cheer you up."

Nicky thanks James again, tucking the note in his handbag and smiling at James. He's got smiles from now until next year, but he'll be the first to admit 'it takes a lot these days', as Richey would say. It takes something extraordinary to make an adult smile...Nicky has his own way to make himself smile. He thinks about the last time he had a genuine Valentine's Day celebration. Not last year, of course, that's when Richey's car was recovered, two weeks after Richey had gone missing. That is also on Nicky's mind, and he doesn't want to ignore it, he wants to remember it. But there's also one of his happiest memories, from the year before. Valentine's Day 1994.


Nicky had skip-stepped into Richey's Cardiff flat, whistling one of his own favourite tunes, which he woke up to every day during his finals. 'The only one I know, has gone, to take me away...'  And he'd come to take Richey away, for the day. He got him out of his clothes first, fixing him a nice, long, bubblebath. And then he got Richey his jeans and a red tee, helping him with his hair and makeup - Richey even let him put some colourless glitter, for once.  And Nicky made Richey's hair nice and fluffy, the way he likes it, not flat or drawn back like Richey'd do. Then he grabbed Richey and took him to the park, to ride one of these peddling-boats that's shaped like a swan. Richey made faces the entire time and giggled about how 'Valentine's Day is shit', but Nicky thinks Richey had a good day that day. Nicky did it because he wanted to give Richey a chance to enjoy Valentine's Day.

Maybe next year, Nicky'll get his chance to enjoy it. Then, maybe in a couple of years, or more. Maybe never.

Slinky Malinky Dog

[Jan. 21st, 2011|07:55 pm]


When Nicky got his first dog, Lucy, he wrinkled his face with disappointment and sullenness only a small child would understand, and sobbed out "But I wanted a pony!" at his mum.

A moment after, he sat down on the floor, petting the dog. The dog licked his hand and he laughed, and the tears were forgotten.

---

Nicky used to take Lucy for walks along the beach with his friend Richey and his dog, Snoopy. Richey joked about how Lucy was all girly, meaning that she was shy and timid and 'wimpy', while his dog Snoopy was a 'real boy', strong-willed and feisty like Richey himself. They had fun watching the dogs interact with each other and play-fight, while the boys made occasional comments about who they resembled.

---

One time, Lucy had some kind of stomach bug. Nicky convinced himself he was unwell too, and stayed at home all day with her, cuddling her and stroking her tummy and giving her medicine and watching TV together. By the time his mum came home from work, Nicky was asleep with his nose buried in the dog's warm coat. Even though she never allowed the dog to go on any of the beds, she couldn't help but marvel at the sight, and dared not wake up the two from their sweet slumber.

Saturday, 15 September 2012

Cut Here

[Dec. 22nd, 2010|09:50 am]



" C – U – N – T" James reads the lines on Richey's arms.

"It's not meant to spell anything." Richey snaps back. "Besides, they're just shallow cuts."

"Just because they're shallow cuts, doesn't mean we can't talk about it…"

"I rather not talk at all now; About anything."

"You're in a mood today…"

"When am I not?"

"You were having a good time, on Sean's birthday party."

"For crying out loud, it was almost a year ago."

"Yeah, but… Wait. You were sniggering in rehearsal when Nicky hurt his foot. I saw you."

Richey laughed.

"Yeah, well, it WAS funny…"

"You're a cunt." James repeated, punching his shoulder, then tackled Richey, rolling around with him. 

Better Than Boredom (part 1/?)

[Dec. 3rd, 2010|11:05 am]

Richey was slinking down on his chair at the lobby, nodding off to his new mix-tape. His legs were hanging off that chair, spread to the sides, the yellow headphones looking especially foreign on him with the way his new bowl cut framed his delicate features.

As if awoken from a dream, Nicky had pulled off his earphones, sliding them down so that the ear buds met Richey's jawbones. He looked up to meet Nicky's gaze, frowning and looking at him intently.

Nicky was having an undoubtedly 'Nicky moment' , looking very stretched out and wriggly today, in an undersized shirt and khaki pants, hand on his hip which seemed to bend his entire posture to form a curve. His expression was slightly pouty, though nowhere near Richey's glorious pout. His eyes looked slightly entranced, from having to move his sleeping schedule around all the time lately, a fact that he hasn't fully gotten used to yet. 'Meet me in an hour, OK?' He sought for comprehension in Richey's dark stare. 'That's two o'clock sharp.'

Richey nodded, gulping. The voice, as well as the speaker, put butterflies in his stomach. Nicky moved his hand to Richey's cheek, stroking it approvingly. Richey knew what that invitation had meant. James and Sean knew it too, but they moved quickly back to the conversation they were having before, digging their spoons in their shared layered cake.

He looked at Nicky rubbing his hands over each other in accomplishment, before turning and walking away.

"June"

[Jun. 2nd, 2010|11:17 pm]


"June?..." Richey looked questioningly at the bundle of joy Nicky was holding.

"I know you're more of a winter type, but we couldn't have possibly named her January, or February...." Nicky shrugged, trying to figure out which one of them the baby looked most alike.

"Or December..." Richey sighed, thinking what a horrible name that is. If anyone had named their baby that. It's not much worse than 'Mercedes....'

"Hey, weren't you almost named Christmas?... Ow!" -Richey slapped his shoulder, playfully.

"Honestly, Nick, you sometimes need to learn when to shut up."

Birthday

[Dec. 22nd, 2009|07:34 am]

"Omnomnomnom..."

"Nicky..."

"Mmmmm?...."

"You've got cake... On the bridge of your nose."

"Right..." Nicky answered, blithely unconcerned. "Why don't you try some? They're delicious."

"Too much sugar... And I don't even mean it in the caloric sense. It's just too sickeningly sweet."

"Right. Then you won't like the gift I got you, either..." Nicky sighed.

"You got me a gift? You really didn't have to..."

"Don't open it, then." Nicky commented dryly.

It was too late, Richey had run to open his gift. "A giraffe plushie?!?"

"I thought you'd like it." Nicky explained. "I thought it would remind you of me"

"For fuck's sake, Jones. You did my interior design, what more could you possibly want?!"

"168 seconds"


[Nov. 10th, 2009|08:39 pm]



Richard's need for love is so big, so huge, it is insatiable.

He didn't have it because he was missing something from his life, or had been denied of anything he wanted. Some people are born with a missing piece, and it fills them with so much longing since the day they are born, always searching for a part of themselves that seems to be fractured.

They want the entire world, to look at it first, then to study it, to understand it, to be part of it. To ache each time they've realised how much they've learnt, and how much they don't know yet.

For others, loving is an instinct. A natural disposition to care for and nurture. Not an attempt to 'fix the hole', as he would call it.

You want to give him a little more than you could possibly give him. You want to give him a little more than you should, anyway.

He loves you so much, he gives up control. He loves you so much, he gives up himself. He loves you so much he can cry. No, don't cry. It's just a dream. It'll pass, all things do.

You decide not to wake him up. Not tonight.

"Security"

[Oct. 29th, 2009|09:19 am]



Security blankets were a literal item, for Nicky. He'd pull his own blanket he took from his mam's house over his head, and the whole world went away. It may as well have been a few universes apart. Nicky knew that in the few moments that separated him from oblivion, the moments his mind slipped from a conscious state into deep sleep, his whole face untensed - letting go of real and imagined worrying wrinkles. Eyelids drop heavily over weary eyes, protecting them from seeing. His mind uncovers rare beauty within itself, a hidden fortress. His childhood playgrounds and possibilities of the future were sealed off, even from him, but they waited for him whenever he went to sleep, and carried him onto the next day.

"The Truth"

[Oct. 29th, 2009|07:24 am]


The truth is never pure and rarely simple. That is true, but Richey wanted a resolution. He looked up to a higher power, and found none. He looked inside himself, and found out that the truth was too much to deal with.

Another now, again



A tidal wave, 
I’m lost in you.
I repeat myself,
I’m lost in you.

At another place and time,
When there was ‘I and you’,
And we were one with the night skies of dark,
One with the stars that shimmer so brightly,
I have a distant memory of how we used to dream.
Now I’m only dying in my sleep.

I can’t speak, 
And what I see I don’t contain.
So I should shut myself away again today, 
To look at the world through my clear glass windows,
My eyes,
My immovable vision of apathy.

Denied me of reality,
I’m losing all ability.

You flew, grown wings and left me the broken parts.
I guess one of us had to end in pieces-
And you were too beautiful to be destroyed.

December 15th, 2002